Ehhhhh sure why not?
I'm Drew and I'm gay. And I'll be honest, even after so much love and support and acceptance, there are some days when I will do just about anything to avoid admitting that to people. Which, to some of you, probably seems crazy. "Of course Drew is gay." Well, at Knockturn, you've all been wonderful and amazing and made me feel really comfortable with it. But every new group of people I come across in life, I'm constantly overthinking whether or not I have to be subtle or not.
And it's insane trying to keep track of it all. This is a main reason I don't use social media, because I'm scared I'm gonna slip up and one group of family and friends that didn't know will find out. Sort of silly right?
I'm 21 (almost 22 ew), I've been 'out' since I was 19 (I think?) and I've known for, well, ever. I've always been attracted to guys. When I was little, I didn't know that what I felt was 'attraction' or that what I felt towards girls wasn't. But in high school, it became pretty obvious, and I tried really hard to ignore it, but it's sort of like a nagging feeling or desire that never goes away. At 15 I tried to come out of the closet to my mom because there was one guy that I really liked and really wanted to ask out. But it didn't go so well, and she didn't believe me, and she made fun of me. So the next day, I told her that I had no idea what came over me, and that I was totally straight. And for some reason, she chose to believe that. So I decided to stay in the closet until I could move out and didn't tell anyone for the next 4 years.
Except my sister. She totally knew. I never told her flat out, but she knew and was awesome about it even being so much younger than me. So go siblings, lol.
Well, there you have it! I've talked about myself way more than I'd ever like to, and ew feelings, but hey, if it makes one of you guys feel better, then it's worth it. Take care and stay strong.