Thank you!

I've been on Knockturn for over six months now, which is more than any other server I've been on. I hadn't known why I still came back. I tend to get bored of repetitive servers, no offense. I'm just not a patient person who has the dedication to keep spell spamming and do homework. I mean, everything about this server is amazing. Pande, you are my role model. I've read your Programming story and enjoyed it quite enough to take up an elective with Programming xD <3

Anyways, I've seen recently that this server makes me happy. Lately in this past weekend, I've felt pure joy. I am doing badly in school but still I find happiness. Usually this would be a time where I would be kind of depressed. It's the community, I see now that's made me feel so happy. I've never really had friends, I'm a very shy person in real life if you don't know. I shut people out, am anti-social. I know right, surprising, saying that I'm hyper and always annoying people on Knockturn. This community is basically the only place I've ever really felt accepted. I love the new people, the friends I've made, the owners, all of the staff, and all the cake I stuff myself with (jk). This server actually makes me shed tears of gratitude. (Like I am while making this application right now). It also gives me confidence in myself. I now bring my computer to school and play Minecraft. This is something I would be too embarrassed to do in the past.

I'm grateful to this server but at the same time, it took me very long to have the courage to make this Thank You post. (I'm not a Gryffindor, I see that, but I love the house. I couldn't see myself with another house even though I'm actually a Slytherin. I have the chance to apply, but I'm too attached to the house I hated at the beginning. I tried so hard to get into Slyterhin. When I saw that I had become a Longbottom, I raged.) Every second that I didn't make this post was a second that my heart was regretting for some reason. I just felt like I actually needed to speak myself out, share how much this server means to me. I mean, I wake up at 3 a.m. just for this server and don't sleep at all on weekends too. 

I'd also like to apologize. I've looked back at the past. I've been meaning to make an apology post three months ago, but I don't know why I hadn't. That's also bugged me for so long. I know I've been a jerk at the beginning (I hope I am not anymore). I was going through hard times, the pressure of band, the loss of my friends previously, and the heartbreak of my really bad crush (Now I'm unstable and keep getting random crushes on everyone in Knockturn >.<) when I had moved. My mother also dumped her now ex-boyfriend. He mattered dearly to me, so dearly that I still have a balloon filled with air from February of 2015.

I've changed, I think. I love everyone on Knockturn. If it hadn't been for this path I've gone through, all this hurt and loneliness, I would have never encountered Knockturn. I am especially glad I had gotten denied Professor. To be completely honest, I was going to abuse the powers. <------ I have no desire to be staff anymore and will never apply unless I actually see I can be good. I deleted that app because it hurt to see that I used to think that way. I'm also thankful that everyone was patient with me. Everyone gave me multiple chances. I feel like a terrible person still. I enjoy pleasure in others raging. Knockturn, however, is a miracle. It brings the good side out of me. The side where you see me try my best to do good things. (I may or may not have been banned a couple of times.....).

I'd like to thank all the people I've met along the way of my journey through Knockturn, especially Andrew. He guided me when I had first come. He's jailed me once before but still saw something inside of me. He's been nothing but patient and only took points when he had to. I made him want to pull his hair out. ^-^ I'd like to thank all the people actually, but I can't remember many names since I'm stupid.  

(I love the last name Longbottom now. Neville is a hero )

Just, thank you Knockturn, for making me who I am today.

To be honest, when I read the title, I thought you were quitting the server D: But don't worry about your past actions, you're a great person, and not to mention one of the chillest people I know :3 We've all been jerks at some point in our lives, whether online or in real life.

I tHoUgHt YoU wErE qUiTtInG I wAs GoNnA sTaB yOu

I tHoUgHt YoU wErE qUiTtInG I wAs GoNnA sTaB yOu

I tHoUgHt YoU wErE qUiTtInG I wAs GoNnA sTaB yOu

You guys are so morbid >.<

I guess I almost quit? But because I almost quit, it brought me closer to Knockturn

I tHoUgHt YoU wErE qUiTtInG I wAs GoNnA sTaB yOu

same